twenteen going on seven

I just turned 20 yesterday, and it was the worst birthday ever. Worst not because I preferred not have parties or booze but because I realized that things will definitely be never be the same again.

NEVER.

My life sucks bigtime.

IMYSM :(

I've never felt so alone.

Each night, every time I close my eyes, my only wish is that I'd never have to wake up again.

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you say you're leavin
as you look away
i know theres really nothin left to say
just know i'm here
whenever you need me
i'll wait for you

so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

IMYSM :(

i got lucky :)

Finally, one miracle which I've been waiting for almost 2 weeks. My 1st sale.

~Think POSITIVE.

right here waiting

<sup>I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting</sup>

I will always be here, waiting.
No questions. I'm here,always here.

i need a miracle

Everything happens for a reason. I never blamed God for all the not-so-overwhelming things that happened recently. But even if I'd cry my soul out, I can never bring back time.

Lesson learned: never be too gullible. Trust your brain, not your heart.

Life was much better before I met him. Darn.