I'm still alive

I haven't posted anything in here for like a year or so already. I got pretty busy with school that I rarely had time to go online except when I'm doing a research on labor codes, fringe benefits, etc.

When I finally had time to rant about my not-so-exciting life, I forgot all my passwords. Pw for tumblr, blogger and even twitter. WTF!? Good thing I was smart enough to jot it down on my little green back. Ta-ta! I'm back. ROFL.

Hmm, so what's new?

Well, I graduated from college last March and until now I'm still completely jobless. Not that I didn't look for a job, I just couldn't get in. Imagine my frustration when almost all my classmates now have stable - err jobs. Not that I don't have one 'cuz I'm still working as a DJ but this time at a new radio station. I'll talk about that later.

Well anyway, life after college is pretty tough. I have to face several responsibilities and It's almost choking me. Good thing though is that I still work as a DJ in one of the local radio stations in Tagum. Being on-air makes me happy. It's like my medication for depression. Although the pay's not that good, still I'm having a good time entertaining people.

Oh well, I know God has other plans for me. I'll just gonna sit back and wait. I may not be financially well-off as of now, but I'll get by. I always do. 

No more I LOVE YOU's

I got my heart broken AGAIN. hmpf

I skipped classes again today. I'm in no mood for a recitation at my Law 2 class so I decided to drop by at the internet lab here at school since it's raining cats and dogs outside.

Normally I would rather spend my time reading at the Library but got lazy just thinking about the distance I would walk to get there (the college library is located at the last building, all the way back).



Uh-oh, I think the bell just rang. Gotta go :))

on moving on

I'm back.

A lot has happened since the last time I posted something here. I was depressed for a short period of time but I realized that life must go on. No matter how hard I try, I can never turn back time. Crying won't bring them back to me. I should always put in mind that they have given me a second chance to go on with my normal life, and that I should make the most out of it.

I may have my old life back now, get drunk every now and then and go out with my friends but deep inside I know I'm willing to give up all of these just to hold them again.

But I know we'll see each other again SOON.

Nanay's going to make you proud boys, just wait and see :)

twenteen going on seven

I just turned 20 yesterday, and it was the worst birthday ever. Worst not because I preferred not have parties or booze but because I realized that things will definitely be never be the same again.

NEVER.

My life sucks bigtime.

IMYSM :(

I've never felt so alone.

Each night, every time I close my eyes, my only wish is that I'd never have to wake up again.

02

you say you're leavin
as you look away
i know theres really nothin left to say
just know i'm here
whenever you need me
i'll wait for you

so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

IMYSM :(

right here waiting

<sup>I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting</sup>

I will always be here, waiting.
No questions. I'm here,always here.

i need a miracle

Everything happens for a reason. I never blamed God for all the not-so-overwhelming things that happened recently. But even if I'd cry my soul out, I can never bring back time.

Lesson learned: never be too gullible. Trust your brain, not your heart.

Life was much better before I met him. Darn.

Blue Wednesday

Why do I have the feeling that people are avoiding me? Can't I be their friend too? Am I expecting too much? Questions, so many questions.

No drama please.