What makes you think that you are invincible?

I can feel it in your eyes that you're so sure

Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable

Impossible.

Tsk tsk. There's more than what meets the eye, I'm pretty sure of that.

The Stalker

Who is the stalker?He he. I am definitely not stalking him.. right? I mean it's pretty natural to know facts about your crush. But some of my friends are thinking otherwise. Sila nalang pag ako. LMAO.

And right now, I'm sitting almost next to him. ALMOST. Haha. If I didn't change my unit I would definitely be sitting next to him. My friends are saying that I am obsessed with him already. I don't think I'm obsessed yet but I'm thinking I'm reaching that point very soon, If my friends won't stop me. Jeez, what a pyscho.

He is so hot, good gracious. I can't stop glancing at him. I'm making myself obvious LOL.

Black Valentine

So valentine's day did go out well.. I think. I drank too much and got wasted resulting to a mind-breaking hangover. Although I did have a blast partying with my friends, something's missing. A lover maybe?rofl. Nah, It's just that I can't help but have this teeny-weeny envy inside me. But hey, there's more to life than having a boyfriend.. right? Maybe.

The past few days has been pretty irritating. I was down with flu and I don't feel like getting up. School's lonely too. I miss my friends, life's pretty lonely without them. They're away for a couple of days now, aboard a cruise ship for their practicum. They'll be back next week.

I'm back!

It's been a pretty long time since I last posted. But I promise that I'll update my blog more every now and then.

So far, my week was good. Even school was okay, much to my surprise. My grades were okay and I participated more in class. It's good news, at least one of my paranoia's slowly fading away. I was more and more contended with who and where I am. Depression seems like a lost suitor and it's great. No more distractions and I could go on with my not-so normal life.

Although most of the time, depression visits me like a mad-driven lover. And during those times, It can be pretty crazy. Smoking seems like oxygen and I feel like I'm eating a gallon of ice-cream. LMAO.

Yeah, ice-cream. My uberlypeyborit comfort food. I don't care If I'm getting bigger and bigger everyday. I don't care about other's opinion anymore. Well, I used to and it was hell.

Anyway, I guess that's it. I have to go finish another cheezy story thing. Cheers!

Fuck, school sucks bigtime. I hate my teachers, I wish they'd die. I hate my classmates, they act as if they're so cool and pretty. Fuck. School is pure hell.

How do I Breath?

I know this shit don't make any sense but this is the only way where I can bare out almost everything that's been disturbing me for the last couple of weeks. I feel like I'm losing my mind everytime silence welcomes me, and all the insecurities and heartbreaks in life comes crashing back.

I wish I could go back to my childhood days where my only problem was a book-less weekend. Now it seems like wherever I go, I couldn't attain the respect and belongingness that I've been searching for almost all my life.

I may look happy, but inside there's this certain void that couldn't be filled. I don't understand myself, I want to cry but I can't. I want to run away but I won't.

I want to give up, to end everything. But I won't. Bitterness has kept me going on.

And Love?That's a foolish thing. Love's for the weak minded. I've long ago stopped dreaming that one day my prince charming would come and sweep me off my feet.

I'm still searching for my purpose here on earth. But I hope It'd be soon cause I don't know how long I could hold on.