So far, my week was good. Even school was okay, much to my surprise. My grades were okay and I participated more in class. It's good news, at least one of my paranoia's slowly fading away. I was more and more contended with who and where I am. Depression seems like a lost suitor and it's great. No more distractions and I could go on with my not-so normal life.

Although most of the time, depression visits me like a mad-driven lover. And during those times, It can be pretty crazy. Smoking seems like oxygen and I feel like I'm eating a gallon of ice-cream. LMAO.

Yeah, ice-cream. My uberlypeyborit comfort food. I don't care If I'm getting bigger and bigger everyday. I don't care about other's opinion anymore. Well, I used to and it was hell.

Anyway, I guess that's it. I have to go finish another cheezy story thing. Cheers!

Fuck, school sucks bigtime. I hate my teachers, I wish they'd die. I hate my classmates, they act as if they're so cool and pretty. Fuck. School is pure hell.

How do I Breath?

I know this shit don't make any sense but this is the only way where I can bare out almost everything that's been disturbing me for the last couple of weeks. I feel like I'm losing my mind everytime silence welcomes me, and all the insecurities and heartbreaks in life comes crashing back.

I wish I could go back to my childhood days where my only problem was a book-less weekend. Now it seems like wherever I go, I couldn't attain the respect and belongingness that I've been searching for almost all my life.

I may look happy, but inside there's this certain void that couldn't be filled. I don't understand myself, I want to cry but I can't. I want to run away but I won't.

I want to give up, to end everything. But I won't. Bitterness has kept me going on.

And Love?That's a foolish thing. Love's for the weak minded. I've long ago stopped dreaming that one day my prince charming would come and sweep me off my feet.

I'm still searching for my purpose here on earth. But I hope It'd be soon cause I don't know how long I could hold on.